《与妻书：真爱往事》是法国左翼思想家、记者安德列·高兹（Andre Gorz，1923－2007）2006年的作品。当时83岁的丈夫用充满爱的心为82岁的妻子多丽娜写下75页感人至深的情书，记录两人爱的历程。一年后夫妻二人共同离世。

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安德列·高兹

下文即是情节节选:

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与妻书:真爱往事 Letter to D :A love story

2006年,法国左翼思想家安德列·高兹（Andre Gorz，1923－2007）为爱妻多丽娜写下75页感人至深的情书,记录了两人矢志不渝的爱情.

安德列·高兹

安德列·高兹（Andre Gorz，1923－2007）,法国左翼思想家、萨特的学生、《新观察家》周刊的创始人。高兹于1923年生于奥地利维也纳，其父是犹太人，1938年奥地利被纳粹德国吞并后高兹和全家移居瑞士，并在那里开始学习哲学，受到萨特存在主义哲学影响。1948年，高兹移居法国，1954年加入法国国籍。

1950年，高兹开始从事新闻记者工作，在政治上接近马克思主义。作为萨特的追随者，高兹是萨特的学生和亲密战友，1961年起担任萨特和梅洛·庞蒂创办的《现代》9位编委之一，1964年成为《新观察家》周刊创始人之一。作为法国左翼知识分子的重要代表之一，高兹支持1968年“五月风暴”，主张“自下而上”地建立群众政党，反对资本主义统治。高兹的主要代表作包括《历史的道德》、《劳工战略》、《艰难的社会主义》、《改良和革命》、《向工人阶级告别》等。

高兹是当代资本主义激烈批评者，而他在法国思想界的主要成就在于依据“存在主义、马克思主义”观点系统地论述了“新工人阶级”理论和“反资本主义的结构改革”战略。他认为，当代资本主义存在的主要问题不是物质匮乏和对工人群众的经济剥削，而是工人创造力在政治上和经济管理上的异化。在他看来，现代资本主义已为“富裕的社会主义”奠定了物质基础，不必消灭私有制，更不需要摧毁资产阶级国家机器。高兹的理论曾对法国“新左派”运动和法国统一社会党有着相当大影响。

1970年代后，高兹发表大量文章支持生态学运动，把生态学、生态危机和“政治生态学”理论纳入自己的研究领域，成为当代生态哲学和生态社会学的代表人物之一。他认为，在当代西方，随着科技发展及其应用，出现了严重的生态危机，要改变这种灾难的状况，唯—的出路在于停止经济增长，改变生活方式和限制消费,并使用可再生的能源，采用分散的技术。与此同时应选择能促进个人自主与自然协调的建立在民主的技术基础之上的社会。在《资本主义，社会主义，生态学》一书中，他集中论述了资本主义、社会主义与生态学的关系，阐述了他对社会主义未来和生态社会主义发展道路的基本看法，主张在新的社会历史条件下社会主义左翼与“新社会运动”的主流——生态运动结盟，反对晚期资本主义。

高兹晚期所有著作都悲观预言，除非资本主义的经济理性和生产逻辑获得根本性的扭转，否则一个针对不论阶级、不论贫富的全球灾难时代必将在不远处。高兹富有想像力和创造力的生态社会主义理论在西方被称为“乌托邦社会主义”，在1990年代有着相当大影响力。

2007年9月，高兹（AndreGorz）和妻子被友人发现在巴黎郊区家中双双自杀身亡，此前，其妻一直重病緾身。高兹享年84岁。

下文即是情节节选:

回忆了从多丽娜罹患肿瘤之后至2006年,高兹夫妇一起走过的日子

I'd reached the age where you ask yourself what you have done with your life ,what you would like tohave done with it. I had the impression of not having livek my life ,of having always observed it at a distance,of having developed only one side of myself and being poor as a person

到了我这个年龄的人,总是会问自己这一生是如何度过的,自己又希望这一生如何度过.我有一种感受,好像自己并没真正地活过,好像自己总是远远地观望着自己的生活,好像自己只在一个方面得到了发展,而作为一个完整的人却显得那么贫乏.

I remember having written that ,at the end of the day,only one thing was essential to me :to be with you , I can't imagine continuing to write,if you no longer are. you are the essential without which all the rest, no matter how important it seems to me when you are there ,loses its meaning and its importance.

我记得自己曾经写过这样的话:到最后,对我而言,只有一件事情是最为重要的,那就是和你在一起.我无法想像,假如你不在人世,我该如何继续写作,你是最为重要的,若没有你,其他的一切-----无论当你在的时候它显得有多么重要-----都将失去意义,变得无足轻重.

We've had dozens of vistors from every corner of the globe and I've given dozens of interviews. I surely have not lived up to the resolution made 30 years ago:to live completely atgime in the present,mindful above all of the richness that is our shared life .i'm now reliving the instants when i made that resolution with a sense of urgenly . i don't have any major work in the pipeline. i don't want" to put off living till later"--in George**ataille's phrase--any longer.

许多客人从世界各地前来造访,我也接受过许多次访谈,我肯定没能坚持按照,30年前的那个决定去身体力行.自在安适地过好眼前的生活,将你我共享的多彩人生作为最重要的事情来关注.现在我重温当初我作出决定的那一时刻.深感时日催人.我手头不再有任何重要的工作.我再不想"等以后再好好生活"--如乔治.巴塔耶说的那样.

In Life, in Death, in Love

当爱恋注满今生

By Ben Macintyre

译/齐文昱

A single sheet of paper, pinned to the door for the cleaning lady, marked the moment when the French writer-philosopher André Gorz and hi**ritish-born wife Dorine reached the final chapter in their poignant love story. The note read simply: “Warn the police station. Do not go upstairs.” In the bedroom, lying side by side in bed in the pretty mansion set back from the road in the village of Vosnon, lay the bodies of André and Dorine Gorz. They had killed themselves with a drug overdose. He was 84, and she was 83. It was September 22, 2007.

他，安德列﹒高兹，法国哲学家，作家。

她，是他的英裔妻子,名叫多莉安。

当清扫女工看到房门上用图钉钉住的单薄的纸条，她知道，男女主人公刻骨铭心的缠绵爱情已经落下最后的帷幕。

字条上字迹寥寥：“告诉警察不要上楼。”

这是一个名叫沃斯弄的村庄。与外面的道路隔开一段距离，是他们居住的雅致楼宇。卧室的床上，他们并排安卧。

他们服药了结了一生。

那一年，他八十四，她八十三.

那一天，是2007年9月22日。

On the bedside table lay some letters, bidding friends farewell and leaving matter-of-fact instructions for their joint cremation. No further explanations were needed, for André Gorz had already written the moving epitaph for their marriage a year earlier, and published it to greater acclaim than anything else he had achieved in a lifetime of writing and thinking.

床边的小桌上是一些信札。信中他们向友人诀别，并理性而现实地期望他们能一起火化，灰骸合于一处。此处已不需再多文字，因为早在一年前，他就曾写下一篇感人的铭文，并且公开发表，来纪念他们的婚姻。文章大受读者的嘉许和赞美，受欢迎的程度超过他一生思考、创作留下的任何一部作品。

Lettre à D: Histoire d’un Amour (Letter to D: A Love Story) is a 75-page love letter from an adoring husband to his ailing wife. It begins: “You’re 82 years old. You’ve shrunk six centimetres, you only weigh 45 kilos yet you’re still beautiful, graceful and desirable. We’ve lived together now for 58 years and I love you more than ever.” This simple statement of devotion and gratitude touched a chord with thousands, but the letter was really only addressed to one person, an acknowledgement that without his wife, Gorz’s work as a thinker, journalist and friend of Jean-Paul Sartre would be “meaningless and unimportant”.

这篇题为《与妻书：真爱往事》的作品，是一位心间载满恩情的丈夫写给羸病中的爱侣的长达七十五页的情书。在这篇长文的开头，他说：

“你啊，今年已经八十二岁高龄。

你的身形已不再挺拔，较之从前，甚至矮了六公分，体重也只剩下四十五公斤。

但你依然容颜美丽，风韵动人。

一起厮守着，我们至今走过五十八个春秋。

如今，我对你的爱，胜过往昔。”

平实朴素的告白，满是至爱与感恩。万千读者被深深打动，尽管事实上这封情书只写给一个人。在情书中他坦言，他的一生，尽管一直在思考，在记录，并有幸与让﹒保罗﹒萨特这样名满天下的大哲学家成为朋友，但如果没有妻子的存在，也会变得“毫无意义，琐碎苍白。”

“I need to piece together the story of our love to appreciate its full meaning. It’s what has allowed us to become who we are, living through each other and for each other. I’m writing to you now to understand what my life ha**een, what our life together has meant.” When the couple met in Lausanne, Switzerland, in 1947, she was Doreen Keir, a 23-year-old British woman from a broken home travelling, somewhat aimlessly, through postwar Europe; he was still Gérard Horst, a 24-year-old Austrian of Jewish descent, without money, prospects or a country to call home. They met over a card table. Outside the window, it was snowing heavily. Later, the bashful young Austrian asked the red-haired and vivacious Englishwoman to dance.

“我们所共同经历的风雨晨昏，一颦一笑，汇聚起来，便是爱情的全部真谛。 我们的爱，浸渍，塑造着你我；两心相依，彼此是各自的依托和诉求。当我写这些字的时候，回望走过的一生，更渐渐领悟，一路有你，生命的意义从此不同。”

1947年，他们在瑞士的卢塞恩相遇。那时，她的名字叫多瑞恩﹒凯尔，一个23岁的英国女生。她来自一个破碎的家庭，身如蓬草，在战后的欧洲辗转漂泊。而他，那时的名字叫做杰勒德﹒霍尔斯，犹太血统的奥地利人。24岁的他，身无分文，前途暗淡，更不知道脚下的哪方土地是自己的故国家园。他们在打牌的时候相遇。是他主动提出邀请，于是一个生性腼腆的奥地利男子，和一位活泼开朗的英伦女生相拥而舞。

窗外，大雪飘飞。

Horst had been born in Vienna in 1923, to a Roman Catholic mother and Jewish father. It was a miserable childhood. He graduated with a degree in chemical engineering in 1945. The following year he met Sartre and Simone de Beauvoir, in Switzerland for a conference, who encouraged him to pursue his growing interest in moral philosophy. But it was the discovery of Doreen that launched Gorz’s writing career.

他，1923年出生在维也纳，父亲是犹太人，母亲是罗马天主教徒。童年，索然寡欢。1945年，他大学毕业了，取得化学工程专业学位。次年，在瑞士的一次会议上，他结识了萨特和西蒙娜﹒德﹒波伏瓦。两人知道他对道德哲学的兴趣愈加浓厚，于是鼓励他继续探求。如果说这次相识是他哲学探索之旅的开始，那么，是他与妻子的邂逅正式开启了他的写作生涯。

Both were essentially rootless. Doreen had been born in London, but abandoned by her mother as a child, and grew up in the care of a “godfather” in a house by the sea in England.

那时两人都是伶仃的漂泊者。她生于伦敦，童年时被母亲抛弃，后来在英国海滨的一处居所中由她的“教父”抚养长大。

“They both knew insecurity as a formative experience,” said one friend. “They fought side by side, mutually protective…she became his archivist and researcher, his interlocutor, his primary reader, his sole critic.” The couple married in September 1949, and moved to Paris. She changed her name to its French equivalent, Dorine. In the fervid ideological atmosphere of the 1950s, while awaiting his French naturalisation papers, Horst decided that it would be safer to write under a pseudonym. He became André Gorz, a peculiar backhanded tribute to the father he had never liked: Gorz was the name of the industrial town where his father’s military-issue spectacles had been manufactured.

“他们当时都有一种浸入骨髓的不安全感，”一位友人这样说，“于是他们携手打拼，彼此呵护，…她为他保管资料，帮他做研究，与他倾心交谈，每当他有作品问世，她就是第一个读者和唯一的评论员。”1949年9月，他们结婚了，并迁徙到巴黎。依照法语的特点，她把自己的名字改成多莉安。50年代，意识形态的氛围疯狂而炽烈。他加入法国国籍的要求尚未获准。等待中，他作出一个决定：出于安全的考虑，开始用笔名写作。于是此后他在文章上的署名变成“安德列﹒高兹”。“高兹”，是一个工业小镇的名字。这个小镇生产过一种眼镜，是父亲当年服役时军队统一发放的。尽管他从来不曾对父亲有过太多好感，但这个笔名成为他对父亲一种独特而隐晦的纪念。

Many of his arguments seem modern today: an emphasis on balancing working time with other pursuits, the need for minimal universal welfare arrangements and the looming environmental threat of globalisation. Gorz, a bitter opponent of nuclear power, was among the first to articulate a theory of ecological politics.

他的很多观点现在看来仍不过时。比如，他强调工作之外，还应有其它人生追求，我们要懂得寻求两者间的平衡点；他指出有必要设立公众福利的保障性下限；他还警示我们全球化的过程带来很多四处潜伏的环境方面的隐患。此外，他义正词严地反对核武器，是“生态政治学”理念的最早提出者之一。

Gorz was an otherwordly, intellectual figure, shy and discreet, a “library-rat” in the words of one friend. Dorine as his counterpoint was very joyful, sharp, always smiling. She was his contact with the real world”. The couple decided, early in their marriage, that it would not involve having children. Gorz once told the newspaper Libération: “…If we had had children, I would have been jealous of Dorine. I preferred to have her all to myself.” In this, they were exceptional, given the tenor of their times and the social milieu they moved in. While Sartre and De Beauvoir each had a string of lovers, André and Dorine Gorz were consistently faithful, with a relationship of unquestioning trust, according to friends, physically and intellectually.

高兹生性害羞而谨慎，活在他自己的理想世界里。朋友戏谑地说他是“一只钻进图书馆的老鼠”。妻子精明，乐观，脸上总挂着笑容，是他的天性的绝好互补，代他与身边的真实的世界应酬周旋。婚后不久，他们便决定不准备要孩子。一次，他这样对《解放报》的记者说，“多莉安是我的，我可不想与人分享。要是我们有了孩子，我一定会特别嫉妒。”“彼此只属于对方”，他们的这种信条与当时的潮流以及他们所融入的圈子有些格格不入。萨特与西蒙娜﹒德﹒波伏瓦各自夜夜笙歌，绯闻不绝，但他和她，用友人的话说，却“一如既往地坦诚忠贞，彼此的躯体和灵魂不曾有过丝毫的猜忌和动摇。”

Acolytes, student and fellow thinkers often clustered at their Paris apartment, where afternoon tea was served punctually, in the approved British manner. The Gorzes appeared to live on nothing, elegantly. “We know how to live in poverty, but not in ugliness,” Dorine would say.

他们在巴黎的寓所总是宾客如云，这里面有他的追随者、弟子和思想界的同行。而且，宾客们总是能准时享用到绝对正宗的英式下午茶。在外人看来，他和她收入拮据，却总是过着优雅精致的生活。还是妻子的话给出了答案，

“生活，可以贫困，但不能潦倒。”

By 1968, Gorz was enjoying considerable literary success as a prominent figure in the student uprising, but by then Dorine was already unwell. In 1965 she had undergone a routine back operation which involved X-rays using the radio-opaque10) contrast agent lipiodol. The side-effects of the chemical were horrific: with particles lodged in her cranium and forming cervical cysts, Dorine suffered enormous and mounting pain.

1968年的学生运动，让高兹和他的文章声名鹊起。而那时，妻子的身体状况已开始令人担忧。1965年她按照计划进行了背部手术，需要进行X光检查。X光技术中需要用射线不能穿透的碘化油作对比剂，而这种化学物质会带来可怕的副作用：粒子留存在她的颅腔中，同时还结成宫颈囊肿，巨大的病痛愈演愈烈，残酷地煎熬着多莉安。

The couple moved out of Paris, and into a large maison in Vosnon, 80 miles east of the capital. But as Dorine aged, the pain grew worse.

于是夫妇搬出了巴黎，在巴黎东面80英里的沃斯弄一处宽敞的楼房中安顿下来。多莉安苍老了，病痛有增无减。

In May 2006, Gorz contacted his publisher Michel Delorme, to say he had “a surprise” for him. Lettre à D had been written, “often in tears”, for Dorine alone. “We knew instantly the greatness and beauty of this work,” says Delorme.

2006年5月，高兹与他的出版商麦克﹒德勒姆取得联系，说要给他一个“惊喜”。这便是作者只写给多莉安一个人的“淌着泪水完成”的《与妻书：真爱往事》。德勒姆后来回忆说，“我们当即意识到，这是一篇至真至美的伟大作品。”

André and Dorine Gorz were thrown together in the tumult of postwar Europe; they stayed together through the intellectual ferment of the 1950s and 1960s; and then they died together, concluding an intellectual pact between equals that had been sealed a lifetime before. Of all the millions of words written by Gorz, none will be remembered so long as the open, extended, heartful love letter he penned to his English wife and lover, just before the end.

“Neither of us wants to outlive the other,” he wrote. “We’ve often said to ourselves that if, by some miracle, we were to have a second life, we’d like to spend it together.”

他与她，相逢于战后的喧嚣乱世，相互依偎，走过五、六十年代的狂躁岁月，最终一起离开尘世，兑现了彼此用平等的灵魂订立，一生的时光封存的爱的盟约。《与妻书：真爱往事》洋洋洒洒的文字中，最为令人难忘的，莫过于结尾处作者写给自己英国妻子的坦荡无拘而余韵悠长的绵绵情话：

“我们都怕对方先自己而去。

那么，期待奇迹发生，

如果真有来世，我们依然携手。”